these past few weeks...

So this past few weeks have been weird, really weird...
My mom has been sick. I've been sick. We had to take my mom to the hospital once, and almost another time. She's been having the worst stomach pain to where she can't even stand up straight or breathe deep without almost crying from the pain. So when we took her to the hospital the first time they told us that they ran some tests couldn't figure out what was wrong and sent her home with some pain medication and an antibiotic for a bladder infection. So after that they scheduled her for some more tests tomorrow and Thursday. But last night we all-of-the-sudden found out that she's allergic to the pain medication. So we almost had to take her to the hospital again, but luckily the pharmacist said that she'd be fine with some benadryl and sleep. So right now she's still in a buttload of pain, and we're just waiting for the tests tomorrow and Thursday.

But lately one thing that God has been teaching me is that I need to take advantage of the time i have, with the people i have around me. John Penry talked to me last Wednesday about becoming a small group leader this semester cause Cameron didn't have a girl leader, and they don't have enough inters. And for those of you who don't know:: That's been my goal in Paradigm to become a small group leader ever since i became a student leader. So when he told me that I was a high possibility for being Cameron's co-leader I was ecstatic!! It made me so excited. But was this God's timing for me? Was i ready for this? Could i possibly handle it? I didn't really have an answer to those questions. So me and Penry were going to both pray about it from Wednesday to Sunday then he would make a decision. So since i wanted it SO bad it was really hard to me to figure out wether God wanted me to take this opportunity, or if my desire for it was getting in the way of my really hearing form God- to figure out my feeling were getting in the way of God's voice. So long story short I didn't get the small group. But it was because they wanted Cameron to build more relationships with people before he got a smallgroup. So i'm in Nathan and Trish's group! And i'm really excited! God is showing me how really amazing all the people in my life truly are! So i am going to really soak up everything that Nate 'n' Trish have for me :) I'm also going to be more of an encouragement to everyone. So every week i'm going to write a note to two people telling them how awesome they are. Cause who doesn't love encouragement?? lol.