At Paradigm's fall retreat, Encore, I got a prophecy from the guest speaker-- Trammel Orr. It was extremely confirming for the season in my life that i'm going through, and also confirming for my future and the calling that God placed on me.
It was in the middle of an altar call about the fire of God. And he was just being so lead by the Spirit that it was crazy. He prophecied about a few people, then he prophecied about me. He said:
"There's is a young girl in here who is called to Africa. That seems like it's not a big deal- many people are called to Africa, but it really is a big deal cause she is so called to be there. Her heart is for missions. She just has such a desire to be there that she would go right now if she could. In fact, she is so called there to where when she sees the commercials with the starving children in Africa her heart breaks, when she sees africa on a map she just wants to cry, and she even has dreams about it [sidenote:little did he know that i actually did have a dream about it the night before he was saying this]. But whoever you may be, you need to know that this time in your life is a time of preparation and of purification. You're being refined. God hasnt forgotten about it being your calling. He hasn't forgotten about you. But you just have to go through this season in your life. Your time is coming. Don't worry. It's coming."
Immediately when he said "Young girl called to Africa" everyone turned and looked at me! It was kind of funny :P But as i was listening to the speaker's message right before all of this, I was just praying telling God that i needed confirmation. I needed to know that i know that it's going to come to pass, that He hadn't forgotten about it being my calling too. I was feeling like God forgot about it being my calling. Which sounds stupid and funny, but that's what it felt like. A lot of people that i care about so much are getting to be missionaries. Katelyn Rackley is moving to Africa with her family this next december. The Barkers moved to France and they got prayed out as missionaries, and God is going to be using them as missionaries eventhough the move was because of their dad's job. Then Penry has a goal of being a full time missionary in two years... All these people that i can't imagine my life without are moving away. And not only are they moving away, but they're becoming missionaries. When i heard this i was SO jealous! :P Which is lame, but i really was jealous. I thought' "God, this is my calling too! Why aren't i going anywhere!? What's going on? Why have you given me a heart for missions if i'm not doing anything with it!? Send me please!!" Then in my next quiet time that i had of just spending time with God, He revealed to me what He had in mind for me in this season of my life.He gave me Proverbs 25:4. It says, "Remove the impurities from the silver, and the sterling will be ready for the silversmith." [That was new living translation]. Basically what i got form that verse is that I am right now just silver. Though it is pretty and valuable, it still has work to be done. There is another level of purity it can get to. Sterling is far more pure than silver and it's more beautiful and of a far greater value. I am called to become sterling. Purity is more than just not lusting. It's something that is in every area of your life. You can't have purity in only one part of your life, it has to be in all of it. Purity not only in your mind, but in your motives- Do you go to church cause you want to, or cause you have to? Purity not only in your heart, but in your words- Do you speak more life or death over things? For me purity and integrity go hand-in-hand.... In that verse God is obviously the silversmith :p haha. But when it said "and the sterling will be ready for the silversmith" That shows me how there are things that God is going to use me for great things, but he can't right now. A silversmith can't use silver for things that call for sterling. God is still planning on using me for His will, but just not yet. He is calling me to a higher level of purification and preparation before He is going to send me....... Even though God revealed all of this to me, i still needed confirmation. It was still so hard to realize that my time is coming. I just needed confirmation for a peace of mind.... And there it was, at Encore. Trammel Orr said everything that i needed to hear. It feels so good to know that i'm actually going to move to Africa and be a missionary someday! :) Now i am getting the chance to go BACK to Kenya, Africa this summer-- For my third time :)
This Picture was taken at the biggest slum in all of Africa, it's called Kibara.
